keeping up...

...barely.

Busy days. Nothing new in that...just busy. Actually, there is something new. I think I've shared how my work computer has been a pain...for the most part of the past year. I've tried everything and consulted with very good computer geeks to try to help. Nothing helps. When I'm in the middle of an email or writing, it will just freeze. Then, when I reboot, it has saved only the stuff from about 5 minutes prior.

I've gotten pretty paranoid about the whole thing. Write a though...push save...write a thought...push save. This has helped me not loose much work. Until Saturday. It froze. I rebooted it. I went to find my work. It only had what I started with about 2 hours earleir...nothing that I had been saving!!! A whole new level of fun...

But someone at Northwest, who heard my cry, came through with a new computer for me. What an incredible gift! not only did they give me a tool for my work, but they gave me peace of mind...ahhh...trust can be restored...a little at a time. I'm still a little leary...waiting for it to freeze. But since Tuesday...it's been great! What a gift...

Relationships are like that aren't they? I didn't intend to go anywhere with it, but I was just struck as I was writing. We cruise along in our relationships, then something freezes. Happens once and we live with it. A few more times, and it's annoying, but we don't toss it out. Over time, we learn to accomodate...if I just save this every 30 seconds, I'll be fine. But then, because we didn't tend to the issue when it was smaller...wham! We loose two hours of work...or 5 years of our life.

Even when we move on to the next relationship (if that one didn't get fixed), we have a hard time trusting. It's a totally different person, but we still find ourselves saving and backing up more than the typical person. It takes so long to learn to trust again.

And then we do. What a gift! Not just the gift of a new friend/wife/husband/fill-in-the-blank...but the gift of trust. What a gift!

Peace,

Matt